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Of a more serious nature, but still just as good.

Tuesday, May 08, 2007

"I just did something involuntary. And messy."

(Ice Age 2, by the way)

I've mentioned before that I'm afraid of confrontation. Any confrontation.

I don't know why. But I'm really afraid of talking to people in person about how I feel. I can blog about it. I can chat online about it. On rare occasions I can even talk about it over the phone. But in person? I'm terrified.

I tried to figure out why I'm conditioned to be afraid of this, and how I got this way, but I kept drawing blanks. I got nothing.

There's been something I've wanted to talk to a friend about. But I've been incredibly scared. Finally I made a commitment today--I told him there was something I wanted to talk to him about, and that I wanted to do it in person. I'm still shocked I even got that far. Presently, I'm very nervous. There is no reason to be nervous about talking this person. And yet, I'm all quivery.

I just keep telling myself that the more I do it, the better it will get. I really hope I'm right.

In the mean time, I will study to distract myself.


Blogger drex said...

It does get easier. I'm to the point now that I prefer confrontation in person (although email is often very tempting) because I'm able to more accurately portray my emotions and the real intent of what I want to say. Practice really does ease things up, though.

And I bet everything will go fine this time around, too.

12:16 AM  
Blogger Stephen said...

My debate career has jaded me to in-person confrontation issues. Even so, I'm pretty sure what you're experiencing isn't that dissimilar to the pre-match jitters I get, or I should say used to get, every single time. I used to flirt/other stuff (all rated PG, mind you) with members of my fan club to take my mind off it.

You just need to get yourself a fan club!

12:16 AM  
Blogger The Jet said...

What's this all about? I'm curious. And I haven't talked to you for like, four days. SIGH.

3:53 PM  
Blogger Brady said...

You fixed the link to your other blog! Yay! That makes my life sooo much easier. Typing it into the address bar is way too time consuming...

7:59 PM  

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