You learn something new every day.

Of a more serious nature, but still just as good.

Tuesday, May 08, 2007

"I just did something involuntary. And messy."

(Ice Age 2, by the way)

I've mentioned before that I'm afraid of confrontation. Any confrontation.

I don't know why. But I'm really afraid of talking to people in person about how I feel. I can blog about it. I can chat online about it. On rare occasions I can even talk about it over the phone. But in person? I'm terrified.

I tried to figure out why I'm conditioned to be afraid of this, and how I got this way, but I kept drawing blanks. I got nothing.

There's been something I've wanted to talk to a friend about. But I've been incredibly scared. Finally I made a commitment today--I told him there was something I wanted to talk to him about, and that I wanted to do it in person. I'm still shocked I even got that far. Presently, I'm very nervous. There is no reason to be nervous about talking this person. And yet, I'm all quivery.

I just keep telling myself that the more I do it, the better it will get. I really hope I'm right.

In the mean time, I will study to distract myself.